The value of Friendship?
It’s a cold evening with nothing much to do and I don’t feel like sleeping yet… perfect setting for the mind to wander again…
Thinking about the past, my online friends, how I get to know them and even ended up being friend with them. When I mean “Friends” I’m referring to those close ones – Yes, where I regard as my very good friends.
Those are very important people in my lives with whom we talk to, share with, laugh with and talk to about life.
Passionately Speaking - what kind of friend are you? Will you think twice before making a comment in pubic that you might later be sorry for concerning your friendship?
I always thought all my close friends should know what kind of person I am. Am I right to say that true friends should trust and believe one another knowing that they can mutually count on each other, no matter what. And when disagreements or arguments or unpleasant situations arise, they can withstand the difficulties without judging one another. Well, I was wrong…
I’m someone who value friendship very much and also one who cherish old moments more than anything. I dare say I always give in my 100 but never expect anything in return (but at least a little due respect in return?). Perhaps that was how I manage to preserve that close friendship with one of my then very good online friend for that many years.
I feel glad that I had him as one of my very good friend at some point in my life. At the same time, it’s quite sad to realise that I am using past tense to describe them now.
On the other side of the coin, I’ve been wondering to myself, why am I putting myself through all these shit? Do I really believe that this place is a meritocracy, where I will get paid and payrises for just doing a duty as what a friend should do in what I am doing? Should I believe in this in the first place?
What shit did I get myself in return for goodness’ sake. Yes, nothing! Should I be the hero to myself and fight all the way for what I believe in? I think the chances of roadkill are pretty high and I might not survive with an intact reputation at the end of the day though.
I am so freaking tired of these shit. And they are not getting me anywhere either. I wouldn’t mind as much if there is a clear end in sight.
However, I am no longer the same person today. I am less taking friendship too seriously. Some people might argue that I can’t condemn the whole human race just because of one bad encounter, but I am sorry to say that maybe it’s time for me to take a step back to concentrate on my Real live job to earn as much as possible for myself without caring much for friendship or whatever it be instead try to give myself more opportunities to relax, slack off and enjoy other things in life. That’s the stand I hold now, until a significant population can prove otherwise.
Of course I learnt many good things out of the negative experience. That’s a little consolation I guess.
Friends come and go… Nowadays, it’s really hard to find some who can really grow old with us. Not like in the good old days of our parents, many who still keep in contact with their childhood friends. Sigh.
